She’s ready to breakaway from the pain.
Kelly Clarkson revealed that she struggled to work through her “extraordinarily hard” depression after divorcing her husband and manager, Brandon Blackstock.
Clarkson, 41, told People that she poured a lot of her emotions into her newest album, “Chemistry,” after finalizing her separation from Blackstock in March 2022.
“I didn’t see it other than: This is my outlet,” she told the publication for its January cover story. “I’m a let-go person; I don’t hold grudges. So it was really delving into what happened in my life and why — and what am I going to do about it?”
According to the Grammy winner, she was very happy to have such a healthy coping mechanism.
“I cannot express how appreciative I feel for having that kind of healthy outlet. Because the level of depression and things that come with divorce or grieving is extraordinarily hard,” the singer stated. “You feel alone, and it’s just a blessing to be able to have that outlet for those emotions that are overwhelming.”
Upon the release of “Chemistry,” Clarkson commented that it “[was] like, ‘I’m taking my power back.’”
“That sounds very therapy, but that’s because I love therapy,” the “American Idol” Season 1 winner continued. “And I think it’s important to have those tools to navigate your life and relationships.”
The singer, who recently moved to New York for a fresh start, said that she is excited about whatever happens next.
“Sometimes you don’t know what life has in store for you, and you think your life is going to go one way, and it’s OK that it doesn’t,” she said. “You never know how beautiful that might be.”
The singer’s interview comes a day after the Post obtained a court filing in which Clarkson claimed that Blackstock, 47, once told her that she wasn’t “sexy enough” to be a coach on NBC’s “The Voice.”
Clarkson, who initially filed for divorce in 2020, testified last year that Blackstock told her the network was not interested in her because they were “looking for a more sex symbol type” and that she was too similar to Blake Shelton.
When pressed by her lawyer, Ed McPherson, on how she remembered every detail of the conversation, the “Since U Been Gone” singer said, “Well, a wife doesn’t forget a time she gets told she’s not a sex symbol, so that stays.”
The “Because of You” singer also testified that Blackstock, with whom she shares two children, told her that NBC “had to have someone that was black. … They had to have a diverse thing.”
Blackstock later admitted in open court that he approached several executives for “The Voice” and said that if they didn’t take Clarkson on, they would lose her to ABC’s reboot of “American Idol.”
Additionally, he said he was coached by two agents from Creative Artists Agency on how to pressure the executives, a statement that would later cost him when a California labor commissioner ruled that he had to pay his ex-wife $2.6 million for unlawfully procuring deals that should have been secured through her talent manager.
Despite the controversy, Clarkson got her wish and was cast as a coach on the show’s 14th season in 2018.